Patience is a virtue I’ve never had and if I look as if I have it, it’s because I pretend that I do.
I find that chewing Tums help a great deal along with vats of Pinot Grigio in achieving this.
I believe life is all about lessons so even if you conquer one issue there’s another one at its heels. Think of it as perennial mountain climbing – there’s forever a peak to scale.
People naturally are our greatest teachers. How many times would I like to knock someone silly for making me wait for instance.
I HATE WAITING…
Like you’ll never see me outside a busy restaurant waiting to hear my name called. When I see a hundred plus people on blankets waiting for free tickets to attend ‘Shakespeare in the Park’ I want to vomit. That’s not free – free is walking in at 7:50 and taking your seat.
When a person keeps me waiting, my blood rises like mercury in a thermometer.
I do know, when I finally learn to chill out and use that time for my own benefit it will all cease happening.
However, just because you theoretically know this doesn’t mean it’s easily attainable, therefore my list continues.
Idle Strollers bug the crap out of me, despite the fact I love doing it myself; but if I’m in a hurry and a group of tourists say are tooling down the street it takes everything I have not to scream, MOVE, at the top of my lungs.
Cashiers drive me nuts even though I’d be like Rainman in their place my Dyslexia in overdrive. Or the woman in front of you doling out her coupons for Spaghetti-O’s or peas. I want to say, lady I’ll pay the difference, just HURRY THE FUCK UP!
The other question one needs to ask one’s self concerning an unattractive character trait is, where is it rooted? Did your mother leave you in a parking lot when you were small or forget to pick you up from school? Was there a significant other in your life who didn’t treat you very significantly?
I find this helps. I know I’m impatient because others have been that way with me. I’ve mirrored the pain turning it inward.
Until I scale this particular mountain I’m a big believer in ‘faking it till you make it.’
One day I will say to someone…
It’s perfectly fine, take your time; I’m am in no hurry, and actually mean it.
Wonder how old I’ll be?