Yes, I’m trying to be clever, but please note my brain is frozen since it’s cold again. Spring stopped by for a day or so but took off again during the night. What’s with her?
I’ve been so wrapped up in my own mishegos, as the Hebrews have it, I’ve done nothing for days for anyone else.
I was reminded of this gently venturing out for coffee.
There’s a free paper they give out at most of the subway entrances. A little, good morning New York kinda deal. As I was passing I see a young kid, no more than twenty-two, twenty-three, shivering handing them out. One out of every three people accepts one without even as much as a nod. My response is usually, no thank you, but I’m from Connecticut, it comes out like an automated recording.
I asked him if he was cold. “Yeah, I am, ” he said, guess I should put on my coat.”
They have to wear these bright red shirts that make them look like big signs. “Yes, put your coat on,” I said, in my best mom fashion, “you don’t want to get sick.”
I then floated into Panera Bread for the toasted bagel I dreamt about. Of course in my dream its name was Henry and was chasing me through the Whitman Mall, but I still had a hankering for a cranberry raisin with extra butter.
Who said my plate isn’t half full?
I kept thinking about this kid. It’s barely 6 in the morning. What time did he have to rise to get there. A truck drops off the papers, but he needs to be there since he’s responsible for them.
After finishing raising my cholesterol, I walked back over to see how he was doing. He had put on his coat so my mothering wasn’t in vain. I asked him if he’d like coffee. “Oh yeah,” he said, “that would be great.”
“How do you take it?”
“Light and sweet.”
When I came back he lit up as if he wasn’t sure I would and said, “Wow lady, you’re so kind.”
Wow kid, you just reminded me, yeah, I am…even though it’s been lying dormant like a car sitting in the garage, if you don’t start up now and then, will no longer run.
It was the shift of consciousness I was waiting for? The tap on the shoulder, the little bird whispering in my ear.
Stop wallowing for a second Susannah….do something for someone else and before you know it, the sun will be up shining on you.
Wonder who I’m channeling?