Thingirl For Hire

Work is slow, the downside of being a freelancer.

I try focusing on the word free when I’m feeling full of uncertainty, the upside of not working 9 to 5.

Of course the 9 to 5ver doesn’t get awakened at 3 a.m. by his ConEd bill screaming…PAY ME FOR GOD’S SAKE BEFORE THE LIGHTS GO OUT.

Patience with a shot of faith is in order during a drought, taking one’s hand off that panic button.

I don’t look my age, but demographically I’m dead in the water…a floater if you will. They see the number and assume I’ll probably die during the day so best hire a younger gal who resembles me….one with less mileage. I’m tempted to say, hey…come kick my tires asshole, I still get forty miles to the gallon.

I remember years ago hearing someone say…get us Lauren Hutton, but a younger one, and I had just seen her on the street looking great. Youth dominates while those who’ve turned a corner are left there, to melt in the setting sun.

There’s an old expression…life can change on a dime, meaning it could flip very rapidly, and in my business that’s true. One day you’re counting pennies, the next, tossing them in the air as you board a plane to Paris.

You would think I’d be accustomed to the peaks and valleys, highs and lows by now, yet here I am wringing my hands, pacing like a cougar in the middle of the night wondering if it’s time to hock my good watch.

Will wait till the morning to make that decision since life, I’ve heard, can change in a heartbeat, or on a small coin with FDR’s face gracing it. And wasn’t he the one who said…all we have to fear is fear itself?Β Β Β  images

Besides, I’ll need my watch to be on time for that next job, comin round the mountain here she comes (we hope).



About Susannah Bianchi

I'm just a girl who likes to write slightly on slant. I've had a career in fashion, dabbled in film and to be honest, I don't like talking about myself. Now my posts are another matter so I will let them speak for themselves. My eBooks, A New York Diary, Model Behavior: Friends For Life and Notes From A Working Cat can be found on Thanks.
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22 Responses to Thingirl For Hire

  1. Susannah, I do admire your spirit. You’re quite a strong person. Being a freelancer must have its pros and cons, but I do envy you your flexible schedule.


    • Yes, it gives me time to write but it can be stressful not knowing where your money’s coming from. Trust is in order…not always easy. When I work myself up into a worried lather I remember life’s so short and to stay in the day so I don’t miss it. An art.


  2. skinnyuz2b says:

    Susannah, I know what you mean about the powers to be looking at the age number and assuming we’re decrepit.
    I was used to getting hired immediately after sending out one resume, and suddenly I’m not even getting called for an interview after dozens of resumes. Luckily, I’m now substitute teaching where age doesn’t factor in. Of course, the pay for a day is what I used to get in an hour. But it gets me out and gives me self-worth.
    Here’s hoping those casting yahoos wise up and realize that most of their audience is beyond the teenage years.


    • That will be the day Skinny. Youth rules…the important thing is not to take it personally, even if it has your name on it, as they say in 12 Step πŸ™‚

      I didn’t know you were a and David.


  3. micklively says:

    You have not lost it. And even in the unlikely event you ever do lose it, as a fall-back position, you can say loud and proud, at least I once had it, which is so much more than is true for many.


  4. Oh, I totally get what you mean about being up and pacing. We have to focus on the fact that God doesn’t leave nor forsake us. He is going to provide. I have this tattooed on the inside of my eyelids… (not really). With hubby on disability and not much coming in, I know that feeling. And like one of the other comments, I have sent out several resumes and been to temp agencies and nothing… thought it was may age, but at the temp agency, I was the youngest ‘old broad’ there! You are gorgeous and I think you should be hired all the time… I will be praying for the end of the lean season for you. Hope you are tossing, not only pennies but silver dollars as you board a wonderful plane to an exotic place to be your fabulous self soon.


  5. katecrimmins says:

    During my days in human resource work I used to counsel people on how to write a resume so it doesn’t disclose their exact age. Sometimes if you can get the interview and show your stuff, you can get the job no matter what the age. I expect your profession is different. You are probably well know and they want you only a younger you! Oh poo! The real one is the best.


    • Age really sucks in my business…I’m so upset about that designer who killed herself…she was about to turn fifty with an ageless beau along with a tanking design label…I know age was in there someplace. I just keep going Kate like I’m propelled by AAA Duracell batteries.

      I bet you were great in HR. Just a hunch πŸ™‚


      • katecrimmins says:

        When I was younger I thought aging was natural and wasn’t afraid of it. Now I hate it. Yes it’s partly the crinkles but it’s also the aches and pains and judgmental attitudes from others. Jane Fonda is one of my “aging” idols. Love how she looks. Love how she is still active. Her beauty is ageless. I know she’s had tweaks but they were very tasteful and not over the top. She doesn’t look plastic to me. I saw Kenny Rogers in person and I don’t have words to describe him.


      • Jane Fonda is amazing looking. I agree. Tweaks are permissible…you’re just supposed to look rested not that you went to Shangri-la.


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