I’ve just spent four days in bed, and not with a hot guy either. My sudden malaise began on Thursday, and is just now, taking flight.
I haven’t had the flu in ten years. To be forced to stay in bed has been more than a little humbling, and scary too. I had to hold onto the wall when I did get up watching all in my path spin like woozy ballerinas.
My body retaliated against whatever invaded it, like a Navy Seal, refusing even water leaving me in a dry-heave on the bathroom floor.
How attractive was I?
So many things crossed my mind as I crawled back to bed, I want to say like a beached whale, but was more a washed-up trout. You want to drop a few fast pounds? This is the way to do it alright. I can’t even keep my pajama bottoms up without a pin.
I hazily remembered something I hadn’t thought of in years about my Italian grandparents who lived below us when I was a kid.
Whenever I was sick as a little girl, they’d come upstairs and hold quiet vigil. They’d perch on our mustard-colored sofa with me across my grandmother’s lap, fevered and flushed, while she gently stroked my back. My grandfather would tousle my hair and say, “Whats’ a wrong with our’a little Susilina.” A four year-old had no idea how special this was, assuming it was just part of the cure alongside the soup my mother spoon-fed me and the late night alcohol rubs to cool me down.
Fluffy the cat made a cameo with her bushy tail she’d fan me with until my mother shooed her away. My father, to be funny, called her Nurse Fluff since she’d find a way to sneak back checking on her mistress.
At one point over the weekend I got emotional feeling so alone in my bedroom that was becoming like a cell, when this memory came a callin’.
I stopped my wailing, blew my nose and somehow felt comforted. Were they there and I just couldn’t see them…my grandmother in her cozy, cotton housedress, the smell of butter and flour clinging to my granddad’s flannel shirt (he was a baker)?
The thought of their care, so long ago, rocked me into a peaceful sleep.
And look at how much better I am.