Well, not till you mentioned it. I have so many problems right now, it’s the last thing I need to keep me up at night.
I’ll begin with my hearing that’s at an all time low. When my eye sight took a dive then came back, my left ear took a powder. I’m hoping it will raise itself since it’s happened before, but so far after a week, it remains missing in action.
I’ve learned not to panic since in the past it’s cost me emotionally and financially. I have faith in my body to heal itself even though it takes its sweet time.
As you know, patience isn’t one of my strong points.
In the interim, I isolate so not to explain, grateful for the library where you can’t talk along with the few friends I still have keeping me afloat with a constant stream of hope and support.
Yes, my list of near ones has lessened. If you had told me this, I would never have believed it. For those of you who don’t know, hearing loss is not contagious…inconvenient, but not catchy.
I’m shaky where I live, the new owners of my building being rude and bullish, the biggest cause of my insomnia concerned I’ll lose my home.
I’m told I have rights, but the thought of fighting big business puts me in a swoon.
Nothing in my life is stable at the moment, and here we have the icing on the cake I’d like to send back to the bleakest of bakeries.
Carmela’s parents need to move since their rented town house is tripling in price. They’re looking in the neighborhood, but so far have found nothing they like. They did see a house 35 blocks away that sounds like a real possibility.
You know what that means…me and Tubala will more than likely part ways.
My friend Chris said, “You can go there…jog even, and see her anyway.”
Yeah, and don’t think I wouldn’t do that.
But her parents are strange. To this day I haven’t their number though I’ve given them mine several times, never to be used.
If I go there and no one’s home, I leave. It’s right around the corner.
I have visions showing up at their new house with Carm in the window barking her big head off, while no one’s there not taking the time to tell me.
They don’t treat me with very much consideration, something I don’t take personally training myself to ignore it because all I care about is Carmela and the time we spend together.
To my credit, I’ve made it work.
Her companionship these last six months has been the best medicine for me…that unconditional affection humans find hard to give.
Now for those of you who, due to circumstance, have had to be separated from a loving four-legged friend, then you’ll understand how my heart’s breaking.
Ebola? Doesn’t come close to losing my girl…and as the Tobey Maguire character says to Jeff Bridges in the film Seabiscuit, and I’ll paraphrase.
SHE’S JUST AS MUCH MY DOG AS SHE IS YOURS…
Love, it doesn’t always come with legal ownership, but that doesn’t make it any less so.