Seen Through Your Eyes

I’m still at a point in my writing where I care what the world thinks of me hesitating to shock with the inappropriate.

For instance, there’s an essay in my pipeline called Cyberly F–ked I just can’t bring myself to post. What will you think of me using such a crass term, yet when I changed it to screwed it just didn’t have the same punch. Using the word in passing seems less stunning, but in a title…will you delete me from your follower list?

There’s a 12 Step slogan that comes to mind: What you think of me is none of my business.

Sure wish I can own that one.

I blame it on Connecticut where my mother, who was so inappropriate in her own life, still hypocritically influences mine…you can’t say that…what will they think for godssake? I raised you to be a lady remember.

I’m a lady alright, right down to my double-strand of pearls I’d like to strangle her with…if she weren’t already at that great big Bloomingdales in the sky that is.

Reminds me of an old Saturday Night Live when Mary Tyler Moore, always perceived as the good girl, repeatedly said penis to prove even Mary Richards wasn’t as pure as freshly fallen snow.

I’m hanging from a thread in so many areas, yet here I am trying to maintain what society claims is right and just.

And what does society know anyway when you come right down to it.

Fuck that…I mean screw that.

See, the latter just doesn’t have the same punch.



About Susannah Bianchi

I'm just a girl who likes to write slightly on slant. I've had a career in fashion, dabbled in film and to be honest, I don't like talking about myself. Now my posts are another matter so I will let them speak for themselves. My eBooks, A New York Diary, Model Behavior: Friends For Life and Notes From A Working Cat can be found on Thanks.
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17 Responses to Seen Through Your Eyes

  1. You won’t know till you try. I say post it up. You might be surprised by the reaction.


  2. skinnyuz2b says:

    I can never say the F word, yet don’t have a fit when others utter it. We all have our hang-ups.
    As a senior in college my group of friends had Mary Tyler Moore night, but I don’t remember the penis episode. Must not have been on that year. It’s hard to picture her saying it!


  3. AF says:

    Great fucking essay. I so fucking hope you post your cyberly essay uncensored.


  4. Elle Knowles says:

    I’m in the same boat with Skinny on this one. If you’ve noticed i use a lot of symbols! Haha. I dont mind hearing or reading – just can’t break out of my shell to write put it on paper. Horrors! #%*£ them! Post it for the lovers of your blog! See that had no punch either! 😉 ~Elle


  5. While I don’t use it on my blog (PG you know), I don’t get offended when it’s appropriate. I do tire of it when people use it as a descriptive adjective for every noun. You are safe and I won’t be offended. Most important of all, you should write what doesn’t offend you and say “f*** off” to the rest of us.


  6. pmahaney says:

    Well lets see Susannah, the word decency comes to mind when I reflect on what you just wrote. I believe that might explain why you feel a reluctance to use the F word, and boy can I relate. When your a man it is just accepted that men use profanity all the time, and I have. The phrase, “He cusses like a drunken sailor” comes to mind. I’ve even heard it said that educated people have such a command of vocabulary they don’t need to cuss. May be true, but sometimes a four-letter word is the perfect word given a particular circumstance. All that being said I still understand your reluctance to use the inappropriate to headline a post, because it just doesn’t seem right to do so. Being a decent person will always give you pause…sh*t.


    • Your ending made me smile. I don’t want to be so concerned. So what if someone doesn’t like it…it’s not the end of the world. It’s a New England shackle I just need to free myself from. Thanks for your thoughts 🙂


  7. Loretta says:

    When I’m really ticked off at home, the F word flows easily, writing it on paper though and on a public forum….hmmmmmm, I know what you mean. But hey! you’re right, it doesn’t have that same punch. So go ahead, test your limits 🙂


  8. Are you fucking kidding me right now? (I couldn’t resist … hehehe) There are times when I use the f-bomb like a comma, and other times I’m setting up house in the convent. In other words…
    Sometimes you feel like an F sometimes you don’t.


  9. I’d never unfollow you, Susannah, no matter what your title was. 🙂 It’s important to be honest to yourself, but I know what you mean. I am conscious of who reads my posts too, especially some of my older female relatives.


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