Faith In Your Art

Art props you up if you remain faithful to it, giving it the attention required.

Stephen King says…you must write and read every day, no exceptions.

I agree, but my faith is shaky judging myself harshly not waiting for anyone else to do it.

Why must I be my own censor, a question I ask myself every time I sit down to write. Phrases like…who cares…nobody will read this…you’re not a pro, dance in my head…oh God…if I stabbed myself with a cleaver it would hurt less.

What makes a writer successful? I’m swaying towards sales though the love of it should trump that, and I do love to write the only thing I’m sure of.

Can I be satisfied being obscure? I really only have ten loyal readers on my blog, not exactly a massive following. Often I have to ask my friends covertly to read it since it seems even they’re bored.

I guess what I’m getting at is…it might be time to take athingirl down, still a nebulous thought but one I keep having.

Blame it on health issues robbing me of so much I choose not to speak of including self-worth, but things in my life feel very hopeless.

I’m venting on the page…not looking for encouragement or sympathy so please don’t reward me with any.

In 12 Step they’d call it, forcing a solution, so maybe that’s what I’m doing…but all does not feel well on the Ponderosa.

SB

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About Susannah Bianchi

I'm just a girl who likes to write slightly on slant. I've had a career in fashion, dabbled in film and to be honest, I don't like talking about myself. Now my posts are another matter so I will let them speak for themselves. My eBooks, A New York Diary, Model Behavior: Friends For Life and Notes From A Working Cat can be found on Amazon.com. Thanks.
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42 Responses to Faith In Your Art

  1. You hack! Just kidding Susannah. I can’t help but feel many writers feel this way. My dad would use that old saying, if you have just one friend, then your rich. I suppose that could apply to writing. I myself do like being appreciated through my writing, but I would hate to depend on the stats to satisfy the need to put something down. Oh god, I’m philosophizing! Anyway, points to ponder right? Its just a phase your going through, you’ll grow out of it. I like what you write, and where would we be without King. :o)

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  2. Well I can’t hit like because I don’t ‘like’ the thought of missing my Susannah fix. You must do what you must do. (hoping it isn’t giving up the blog) Perhaps a less demanding posting schedule (I won’t tell Stephen King if you don’t). In any case as always *hugs.* (that’s not encouragement or sympathy, just a hug)

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  3. joan blake says:

    No I don’t think you should even consider that as an option unless you are planning to put the writing talent that you have into something else that we will look forward to reading and enjoying.

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    • Frankly, I don’t know what I’m doing and all my slogans…stay where your feet are…one day at a time…let go and let God are failing me. I ran in the cold to clear my head but it still rattles like an empty can.

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  4. NO!! I would miss you and your words, they lift me up and encourage, and today, they provided a needed kick in the pants… I have failed miserably the past six months of being consistent in reading and writing. Truth be told, when I do read, I look for your blog first. You have been on my mind and in my heart this week, and I apologize for not being consistent in writing you. Know in my heart, you never stray and I find myself praying for you often. For safety, for peace, for blessing, for health. I hope those nebulous thoughts stay in the stratosphere for a long time. Take a break, but don’t leave. concentrate on getting better, and look forward to spring, when you can freely get out without the drab gray snow and gray skies. When your beloved park will be filled with the people who energize your thoughts and words, where your four legged furry friends wait to be noticed and treated like they deserve. Oh, yes, your words inspire, and I too, only have a few who read, and I often wonder why they even bother, but, write, we must, and for those who look forward to your blog, we thank you… Know you didn’t want this type of response, but, too bad… you got it… My stubborn Irish blood just went toe to toe with your Italian… ❤

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  5. Hey cutie… SMILE, or I’ll cry and that would bring rain, and we’re talking downpours and not showers to New York, and you don’t want that now!

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  6. You are the start of my day. I get up, take the lamp chops outback for a pee, get my coffee, distribute bones and nestle in with Peanut on my lap to read your Blog….every single day without ever missing. Some times I can’t comment until I come home because I am still a slave to the man, but that just lets me read again.
    Do what you need to do for you, but remember you really do mean a lot to your devoted readers.
    Hugs, Peace and Love to you Susannah.

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    • I’m embarrassed by all this…my intent was not to reap praise…I’m just very down in general and unfortunately it spills into every area. Thank you for your kindness.

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      • It’s not praise. It’s truth. It’s just the way it is. I really hope your downs subsides soon. I saw a really fat squirrel yesterday and thought “Susannah would be encouraging this thing to use a treadmill and lay off the peanuts”

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      • I love to watch squirrels. They’re so industrious…and they have sex all the time. Natures’s peephole is mighty large when you think about it Top. They do it everywhere and don’t care who’s watching.

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  7. bob181 says:

    To my high school aquaintance of 1972:
    You had a rough week. You deserve to be liked and loved. Take care of yourself physically and emotionally. Do everything you can to stay positive ..”beware of darkness”. Your followers care about you . Suzannah I follow a blog by Bob Lefsetz a retired lawyer for the music industry. He writes extensively about new music artists breaking into today’s business with the internet and twitter having changing the industry. I believe his advice would apply to all artists (writers). Please check him out at http://lefsetz.com/wordpress/index.php/archives/2015/02/24/confidence/. Let me know what you think of him. Sincerely Bob, Fairfield Ct.

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  8. bob181 says:

    Comments are closed only on older posts (the link i gave you). New music artists are in the position writers are in – music stores are closed as book stores

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  9. Patricia says:

    I’m still here just not as often. Life is sometimes more than I can handle then I step away and take some time to get my energy back. I don’t have lots of followers which is ok I don’t think I could keep up with the comments if I did. I mean who has time to respond to dozens of comments?
    Do what you gotta do. I agree with Kate. Scale back a bit or take some time off and come back refreshed. A question to ask…will you be happier and healthier not writing?

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  10. micklively says:

    You don’t even need to ask what I think. It hasn’t changed one jot since last time I told you. Please take pity on your loyal fans! 😦

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  11. MJ says:

    Ah, Susannah, in respect to your wishes, I didn’t want to comment. It’s a little like making footprints in newfallen snow, which always makes me feel like a trespasser. I’m not a member of the blogging community. But two days later, and with a lovely white path tamped down, another set of prints will hardly be noticed. Still, I think encouraging words always seem harder to remember, so they bear repeating, and often. Reading your blog is as much a part of my day as my wake-up cuppa Joe and feeding the canary. You have a gift, and you give it so generously! It’s not easy to post with the regularity and quality that you do. and I’m both grateful and praying that you’ll be rewarded, materially and in spirit.

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  12. skinnyuz2b says:

    Susannah, you are not alone. Most of my own family members have never read my blog. My own four children seldom read it. The strange thing is that when they do read my writing they call to say how funny it is. Then they proceed to ignore it again. Go figure.

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