Feeling Less Because Of Another

images I try very hard being positive avoiding self-pity like the plague, but sometimes when you’re not looking, you get hit by a sniper on the roof.

I suffer from hearing loss, the biggest challenge I’ve ever had.

To say it’s changed my life puts it mildly.  Even on Sunday when I longed to go to church to see the lilies bursting on the altar and hear the French horns I didn’t because it sounds like nails across a blackboard, and not average nails either…Kim Kardashian nails, or a cheetah’s.

I’ve handled this admirably, accepting it, knowing things could be worse.  Every time I fall into poor me mode, I’ll see a kid in a wheelchair or an adult who can’t see.

That said.

I was working with someone I’ve known forever.  He hails himself a Christian, but might be one of the meanest men ever to cross my path, but who knew until my hearing went south something he can’t seem to tolerate.  There’s clearly a screw missing I so wish he’d locate so he doesn’t hurt me or anyone else again, since it wasn’t the first time.

The last incident upset me so much, I walked in bitter cold to a subway stop a mile away so no one would see me cry.

This time he made fun of me in front of others as if hearing loss is something to laugh at.

It’s not, nor is it contagious.  Compassion from another especially a peer is not something out of the question to expect or look for, and you have to wonder how someone can be so heartless.

We all have mountains to climb, especially this fellow who also has health issues involving his legs.  Ever since confiding in me a few years ago, I’ll always offer him my seat knowing it pains him to stand.

That’s the part I’ll never understand.

I will continue to give him my seat and hope he finds that lost screw soon.  If not, he should without further ado, turn in his bible.




About Susannah Bianchi

I'm just a girl who likes to write slightly on slant. I've had a career in fashion, dabbled in film and to be honest, I don't like talking about myself. Now my posts are another matter so I will let them speak for themselves. My eBooks, A New York Diary, Model Behavior: Friends For Life and Notes From A Working Cat can be found on Amazon.com. Thanks.
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30 Responses to Feeling Less Because Of Another

  1. micklively says:

    Sorry to argue with you on a touchy subject Susannah but I do not agree. That seems like typical behaviour for a Christian to me. They generally don’t practice what they preach; conveniently massage their own rules and commandments to suit their own nefarious ends; covet wealth and power. You’re better off steering well clear of them.


  2. skinnyuz2b says:

    You’re a better person than me, Susannah. I’d let him stand. And when he discreetly asked if I was going to let him have my seat again, I’d cup my ear and say, “What? I can’t hear you!”


  3. I hesitated to ‘Like’ this becasue it’s sad. I don’t understand why people can’t accept someone else for who they are. My physical therapist is deaf and speaks in a way that you wonder why she sounds the way she does but she does her job, is pleasant and I don’t question her lack of hearing.
    Kindness is from within. You can’t find it in a book even a bible. 😎


  4. Elle Knowles says:

    He would find that screw if he read that bible more! Some people don’t think before they speak – or even after. If he had he would apologize. Just keep on being you Susannah. You bring a lot of smiles to a lot of people in this world. We should all learn from your example. ~Elle


  5. He’s a hypocrite. Next time he makes fun of your illness give him a swift kick in his balls. That will make hime see The Light.


  6. I’m with skinny on this one. I wouldn’t give up my seat. However, I would call him on his rudeness. Perhaps he thinks he’s funny? There is some deep seated cause for this and you deserve to know.


  7. What a complete fucker! Of course it’s easier to point out flaws in others in order to hide our own insecurities, but dear lord you don’t have to be mean spirited.


    • I’ve experienced a lot of that. I think it scares people so they need to keep away and shoot as they’re doing it.

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      • Justin says:

        I had about 30% hearing loss in my right ear from childhood infections and eardrum lancing (ahhhhhh, that joyful needle) till an operation in ’78 put an artificial stapes in my middle ear. Before that I had the experience of derisive comments. Not quite the invective inflicted on you. But you bare it with an air of nobility, though it does seem the brut could use a good thrashing with a rolled up newspaper across the nose. Is there no way to restore your audio deficit? Best wishes. J


      • I never knew that. So sorry. I deal with it best I can. I’m glad to say bad behavior from another makes me kinder. I love the newspaper idea. WHACK.


  8. I do not understand meanness… I am so very sorry you have been at the receiving end of such behavior.


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