Forgive my choice of words, but I’m truly fucked. My hearing is so bad right now I virtually can’t have a conversation. My nodding abilities are soaring since no one has any idea since I keep encounters brief so not to give myself away and wonder, now what?
Should I hop back on Prednisone like a horse that continues to throw me…or just quietly accept the fact I am slowly but surely going deaf?
I get really furious at God screaming at him saying, of all the shits in the world you can go after, why would you choose a nice girl like me?
Yeah I know, how stupid, but that’s where we’re at folks.
I had a bone density test that more or less said, I’m in the green room for osteoporosis. When I think what great shape I was in before this from my years of running, I could cry. Steroids are like termites that gnaw at your bones till there’s nothing left. Vultures politely leave more in their wake.
Such attractive choices I have…
to either go deaf or break a hip.
Do you think I should flip a coin?