When you come from an alcoholic home, this becomes crucial.
It’s no surprise to have the instincts of a cat. It stems from years of not knowing what you’ll walk into. You finally realize in the last leg of your tour, if you will, you needn’t live that way any longer. Call it consciousness, with a shot of grace.
So what do you do when some nut sneaks in the backdoor?
It’s a business situation I’m in that on the back-end, will be great for me. Unfortunately, one of the people involved is driving me batty. They’re the go-between…conduit, wingman, link…the liaison with the man I’m doing business with, who I’ve come to really like.
The big mystery is…why he puts up with this person.
My friends all tell me to keep my eye on the ball. “They’re merely a pebble in your shoe,” said Evelyn. “Don’t kill the messenger,” quipped Chris.
Yeah well, this ACOA survivor (adult child of an alcoholic), would like to kill the messenger, to put us all out of their misery.
In Ala-Non, a 12 Step Program for us tainted by the effects of alcohol, teaches you, not to pick up the rope. In other words, when provoked, walk away. It’s hard to beat someone who has the isms of alcoholism. I don’t know this creature’s history, but mark my words, a cocktail shaker lurks somewhere.
It’s that knee-jerk reaction going from 1 to 100 without passing go. The blame on everyone else not taking responsibility for your own actions. How it’s always about you, outraged when others beg to differ. Doesn’t matter if you’re not the main focus in say, a business situation. You’re so insane you don’t see just how inappropriate your conduct is…a loose gun pulled out when least expected.
So I have a crackpot in my midst. Pebbles, thanks to Evelyn’s remark, is my new name for my bonkers go-between. I must detach with an axe if I have to, so they don’t reopen my many wounds.
It’s tough coming from a background equal to three tours in Nam. And like any veteran who has seen and endured too much bloodshed, you don’t care to reminisce.
All things pass, as they say, and this will too. It’s up to me to emerge unscathed. Easier said than done, my friends.
Easier said than done.