Kicked In The Wallet

images I’m a giver, I am, since to borrow a line from St. Francis, receiving is in the giving.  It’s also the best antidote when you’re troubled, vodka being a close second.

I’ve been thinking of a woman I met on the internet who used to read my blog.  She was actually my very first follower who I really liked.  Laura, I’ll call her, rescued animals, cats mostly, she’d catch, alter and plan on releasing back into the wild, but kept keeping them instead.  At one point I think she had 8 all living in the upstairs of her house.

She was married to a man who wouldn’t let her work and was cheap to boot, but none of that stopped her.  She sold her clothes and jewelry, even her high heels in order to support the cause.   I’m always moved by those who step up for the four-legged since it’s not easy.  It takes a loving commitment putting their welfare sometimes well above your own.

So, I used to send her money.  Twenty, sometimes thirty bucks cash in an envelope a couple times a month.  Occasionally I’d call a Petco near her and order a case of Fancy Feast she’d pick up.

She’d write to thank me, giving me her updates saying, there’s just one more to catch and I’m putting him back…but there was always just one more after that.

Due to my ongoing health issues, my finances somewhat changed and I couldn’t send her money anymore.  She said she understood, but then disappeared.  Didn’t even read the blog any longer as if to say, why should I bother if you’re not bankrolling me anymore.

It really hurt on this end.

I realize though, that cyber connections can be very misleading.  The internet is so intimate you think you know someone well you’ve never met.  Couples have long term, cross-country even across the sea relationships that feel fulfilling for years.  When you think prisoners marry never seeing their wives loving one another mainly through correspondence.

My point?

I got over it though I’m writing about it.  An essay on something painful can punctuate your loss.

I’m never sorry for my generosity since the grace of it ricochets back to me, and it’s too bad Laura felt I was only good for a few bucks having little else to offer.

But that’s about her now, isn’t it?


About Susannah Bianchi

I'm just a girl who likes to write slightly on slant. I've had a career in fashion, dabbled in film and to be honest, I don't like talking about myself. Now my posts are another matter so I will let them speak for themselves. My eBooks, A New York Diary, Model Behavior: Friends For Life and Notes From A Working Cat can be found on Thanks.
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18 Responses to Kicked In The Wallet

  1. micklively says:

    There are a million and one possible reasons why she may have lost contact with you, many of which would be entirely beyond her control. Given your description of her generosity, is the money a likely motivation?
    The subject of people marrying prisoners is an interesting one. I wonder whether the separation is an impediment or the attraction?
    Speaking as a friend across the sea, I can’t say I’ll always be here. None of us can. Nothing lasts for ever. But I hope you will be cheering my days for many years to come.


  2. skinnyuz2b says:

    Susannah, regardless of her motive I think it’s safe to say that your donations went to the stray animals. And that is what you wanted. The woman fell in love with the rescued babies, which is certainly easy to do; therefore she indefinitely delayed releasing them. Why she stopped reading? We’ll never know.

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  3. Beverly Giangiacomo says:

    I found it very interesting to learn that you indeed have time to connect in a way with those who follow you. We, or at least I, assume that you have so many fans that it would be impossible to learn much about any of them! Each of us is loving learning about your adventures and attitudes and goodness as you proceed through the Big Apple each day.
    Let’s hope that nothing terrible happened to Laura…accidents do happen, take people out, and internet connections would never have a clue. Perhaps now you will hear from her again and you can let us all cheer at the reunion.

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  4. Elle Knowles says:

    It does make you wonder why she disappeared off the face of the earth like that. You are a trusting person as I am and it’s easy to trust when you don’t have the knowledge of background material. You won’t get rid of this cyber friend that easy. I enjoy your essays too much and look forward to hearing from you most days. 😊
    As for the subject of people marrying
    prisoners – you are very well-rounded in your knowledge of interesting topics you have researched. Makes me want to dig deeper. ~Elle


    • I liked what Mick had to say on the prisoner front. Maybe a wife gets money from the state. There has to be some practical draw I’d imagine, not just the cyber fervor of having a killer husband, no pun intended, but then again, who am I kidding. LOL

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  5. I hear what you say. When I started there were two or three bloggers that I felt “close” to. In reading stories you feel you know the person but you really don’t. One blogger never used a name. It wasn’t even a pseudo name but a goofy thing. Then blip they were gone. I felt a sense of loss when it happened. I’m getting better about realizing that a reader today may not be around next month. People lose interest or life intervenes. It sounds like you exchanged some wonderful animal stories. Your generosity is legend!

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  6. Ally Bean says:

    I hope that all is well with Laura. I’m a giver, too. Both of money and my attention. Still, even if you never know the rest of the story, I’m with you. It’s the giving that’s most important.

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