Yes, I’m an addict of sorts…a junkie…a person with a compulsive habit or obsessive dependency on something. In my case it’s steroids, and no, I’m not a weight lifter or sumo wrestler.
I’ve been taking them to keep my hearing stabilized, and they work like a charm, or snake coiling from a basket, depending how you look at it.
A dominant drug taming everything in its path. Trouble is, steroids are addictive, and very potent because the minute you stop taking them, it feels as if they’ve hurled you off a cliff.
Did I mention they’re packed with speed, which is why you’re painting your kitchen at 2 a.m. like Jackson Pollock on acid.
A doctor I know said, medicine is your friend Susannah. Oh yeah, well with friends like Prednisone pal, who needs enemies?
I’m sitting here in my basset hound pajamas one step from occupational therapy. A form of rehabilitation for those recuperating from physical or mental illness that encourages healing through the performance of activities required in daily life.
Ya know, like making a wallet without your belt.
Yes I jest, because there’s no other way to combat the severe withdrawal, except with humor I gratefully have in spades, along with diamonds and hearts.
Toss in a joker and we’re off to the races.
The big question is…to brave it out, stay off of them…show steroid just who’s boss, taking the chance of my hearing going south. It’s already lolling in Louisiana so if it ends up in Texas, I’m pretty well fucked.
Yes, even girls from Connecticut have need of the F word even if we try not to use it.
It’s just so fucking universal.
Oh, there I go again. 
SB
I hope your light at the end of the tunnel stays bright and clear, no matter which state you find it. I hear Terra Del Fuego is delightful this time of year.
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Was just thinking f you. Looks as if you’re back to work. I will don a miner’s hat to search for the light at the end of that tunnel 🙂
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What a predicament, Susannah. It seems like you’re damned if you do, and damned if you don’t. Sort of like the upcoming election. I know you’re giving a lot of thought to your steroid problem and will do what is right for you.
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I tell myself, everyone has problems. This happens to be mine. The debates were very depressing. Who are these people barking at one another like two junkyard dogs? What about the country Skinny? It’s about her, not them.
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PS Please always know how much I appreciate you reading me daily. You flatter me so Skinny. 🙂
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Don’t you wean off of steroids, lowering the dosage day by day. That doesn’t make up for the “no dose” at the end. I hope your hearing stays stabilized.
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Me too. Thanks.
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MD’s … we can’t live with them and we can’t live without them. The problem is they have no solutions that are drug free. They just play Russian roulette with us. Awww … hope you can manage with as little discomfort as possible.😍
Isadora 😎
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I appreciate your encouraging words. I’m trying to be more candid, less ashamed of my hearing loss. Just now I had a huge meltdown at the Apple Store because the noise was just too much for me. Being off meds makes it all so much harder but there are incredible side effects like they knaw your bones like termites. I don’t know what’s right anymore Ms Isadora. Thanks.
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I’ve experienced my children (3 – all bi-polar) being on and off psych drugs. The withdrawals and behavioral changes stings like 1000 bees. We all have our crosses to bear. Of course, some more svere than others. But, G-d doesn’t give us anything we can’t handle. Blessings of healing wishes 🙏🏻
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So I hear, sort of. That God is such a prankster.
My heart goes out to you and your children. Bees. Yes, know all about them.
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He sure is. I plan on having a long conversation when I see him. LOL
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He’s just so busy, that God. 🙂
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Having you in my thoughts and prayers and wishing you well! I can’t use the F word either but sometimes no other word can convey the gravity of the moment! Hang in there, you are stronger than this! Blessings! 🙂
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Thank you Star. A very nice message indeed. 🙂
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I certainly sympathize with you right now! recently had to take a steroid pack for a muscle strain. On day 2 I was walking like a teenager, but I paid the price by the never ending feeling of jumping out of my skin. How can a pill that small have so much power? I’ll send positive vibes for a quick withdrawal with no long lasting effects.
Ps. I’m currently on the hunt for a stronger word than F**k. I’ll keep you posted.
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Reminds me of all the short men I’ve known. It’s a pill like a little bullet.
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It really is …
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🙂
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It’s tough to give up what you depend on especially in the case of drugs. Who would have ever though those tiny pills held so much power? One day at a time is all you can hope for, but I know you have the willpower Susannah. Keep busy, read, write…wish I was closer…we’d have lunch…you can do this…From the looks of your comments there are a lot of people rooting for you. ~Elle
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Just need to root for myself. Thanks Elle.
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Just reading this…I have been busy with life and computer time has been limited. Drugs can make things better until they don’t. Crosses come in many forms. Hope you are feeling better.
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It comes and go, how my body feels on any given day. I’m grateful when it’s good enough to just be without too much discomfort. Old age ain’t for sissies as Betty Davis liked to say. Always wonderful hearing from you. Hearing…such a broad term in my case. 🙂
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I know about the old age thing. Got my cataracts taken care of so I can see but now I can’t hear unless it is quiet and people shout at me. Still I like living…
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I bet you can still hear Teddy.
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yeah, Teddy talks to my heart.
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Meow.
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