Kicking My Drug Habit

Yes, I’m an addict of sorts…a junkie…a person with a compulsive habit or obsessive dependency on something.  In my case it’s steroids, and no, I’m not a weight lifter or sumo wrestler.

I’ve been taking them to keep my hearing stabilized, and they work like a charm, or snake coiling from a basket, depending how you look at it.

A dominant drug taming everything in its path.  Trouble is, steroids are addictive, and very potent because the minute you stop taking them, it feels as if they’ve hurled you off a cliff.

Did I mention they’re packed with speed, which is why you’re painting your kitchen at 2 a.m. like Jackson Pollock on acid.

A doctor I know said, medicine is your friend Susannah.  Oh yeah, well with friends like Prednisone pal, who needs enemies?

I’m sitting here in my basset hound pajamas one step from occupational therapy.  A form of rehabilitation for those recuperating from physical or mental illness that encourages healing through the performance of activities required in daily life.

Ya know, like making a wallet without your belt.

Yes I jest, because there’s no other way to combat the severe withdrawal, except with humor I gratefully have in spades, along with diamonds and hearts.

Toss in a joker and we’re off to the races.

The big question is…to brave it out, stay off of them…show steroid just who’s boss, taking the chance of my hearing going south.  It’s already lolling in Louisiana so if it ends up in Texas, I’m pretty well fucked.

Yes, even girls from Connecticut have need of the F word even if we try not to use it.

It’s just so fucking universal.

Oh, there I go again.  crazy-woman


About Susannah Bianchi

I'm just a girl who likes to write slightly on slant. I've had a career in fashion, dabbled in film and to be honest, I don't like talking about myself. Now my posts are another matter so I will let them speak for themselves. My eBooks, A New York Diary, Model Behavior: Friends For Life and Notes From A Working Cat can be found on Thanks.
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27 Responses to Kicking My Drug Habit

  1. micklively says:

    I hope your light at the end of the tunnel stays bright and clear, no matter which state you find it. I hear Terra Del Fuego is delightful this time of year.

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  2. skinnyuz2b says:

    What a predicament, Susannah. It seems like you’re damned if you do, and damned if you don’t. Sort of like the upcoming election. I know you’re giving a lot of thought to your steroid problem and will do what is right for you.

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  3. Don’t you wean off of steroids, lowering the dosage day by day. That doesn’t make up for the “no dose” at the end. I hope your hearing stays stabilized.

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  4. MD’s … we can’t live with them and we can’t live without them. The problem is they have no solutions that are drug free. They just play Russian roulette with us. Awww … hope you can manage with as little discomfort as possible.😍
    Isadora 😎

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    • I appreciate your encouraging words. I’m trying to be more candid, less ashamed of my hearing loss. Just now I had a huge meltdown at the Apple Store because the noise was just too much for me. Being off meds makes it all so much harder but there are incredible side effects like they knaw your bones like termites. I don’t know what’s right anymore Ms Isadora. Thanks.

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  5. He sure is. I plan on having a long conversation when I see him. LOL


  6. Having you in my thoughts and prayers and wishing you well! I can’t use the F word either but sometimes no other word can convey the gravity of the moment! Hang in there, you are stronger than this! Blessings! 🙂

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  7. I certainly sympathize with you right now! recently had to take a steroid pack for a muscle strain. On day 2 I was walking like a teenager, but I paid the price by the never ending feeling of jumping out of my skin. How can a pill that small have so much power? I’ll send positive vibes for a quick withdrawal with no long lasting effects.
    Ps. I’m currently on the hunt for a stronger word than F**k. I’ll keep you posted.

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  8. Elle Knowles says:

    It’s tough to give up what you depend on especially in the case of drugs. Who would have ever though those tiny pills held so much power? One day at a time is all you can hope for, but I know you have the willpower Susannah. Keep busy, read, write…wish I was closer…we’d have lunch…you can do this…From the looks of your comments there are a lot of people rooting for you. ~Elle

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  9. Patricia says:

    Just reading this…I have been busy with life and computer time has been limited. Drugs can make things better until they don’t. Crosses come in many forms. Hope you are feeling better.

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